Thanks everyone, for being the people I thought you would never be. Anyway I guess people just like to do what pisses other people off with no thought whatsoever that it might hurt the other. So what I'm trying to say is, your feelings has never gone through anyone consideration before they act. Therefore, you mean nothing, or rather... They give no shit about how you might feel. Then again, everyone is selfish (its human nature) but I doubt any of you could ever understand. Just for your protection however, next time someone promises you something, let it flow through one ear and out the other. Everyone only realises what they scarifice and not the other party. Point? Its unproductive to try to please or make scarifices for someone else. Cause all they'll think of it is shit. I guess not many people will really know how's it like to have so many people around you yet be all alone at the same time. Its pretty pathetic really when fame catches up and nobody ever really knows. Maybe some have tried to see things this way but it doesn't make a difference does it? So to all of you and you and yes you too, you wouldn't fucking understand even if it hit you right in front of your eyes. I'm fine with your hate and dislike for me, its really your preference really but the last thing I need is for you to come and play pretend with me cause life is certainly not a game of Hide-and-Seek. Not my life at least. See, I don't think you'll ever understand how it affects me when you think what I don't know will never hurt me, by having that thought alone is all I'll never need for a lifetime of doubt that I'll lantern upon you. Thing is, I do find out about everything eventually and I know I show no damage, it doesn't mean everything is as it seems. But if you're fine with only the surface, then thank you, you may take your leave. Well, you know many things are better left unsaid as I've always believe but certain things that could affect a whole lot of people could be more threatening to you rather than me. So before you pick up your phone to call me and ask if I'm alright, yes I am thank you... Its you that needs the thinking. Oh and what joy it is to have someone so dear to you to retract agreements just because you can put up a false front long enough to make her think its fine doing what you dislike her to do, so she just carries on doing it despite knowing you hate it too. You know, when you have a certain expectation of someone and the person doesn't live up to it, you get disappointed. I guess I'm way pass that - time to get used to it. So point taken, have no expectations of her. Don't expect any concern, better still, don't show any. The best? Don't even feel no more. I'm pretty sure that soon a day will come where I'm sick of everything and just leave this wretched place alone what's the possibility of needing when I don't need nothing to survive at all? Its time for a personal revolution: Get up, get on, get lost. Its affirmative if you choose to say that I can't be bothered cause reacting to an action is simply consuming and tiring on so many levels. Sorry I am for you not being able to accept me the way I am. I can't be what you are. Honestly I don't think I expected too much from someone like you but beneath disappointment you've achieved it. So thanks for everything and taking my care as a curse.

To all of you: You wouldn't understand being the black sheep I keep thinking what do I do to you to deserve such treatment I can't find no answer but thank you still, for taking me as an example and showing me what you are capable of. Reacting's too demanding and I don't pay its worth. Sorry because I can't react and be what you are. Whatever it is, thanks alot :)