and you had no idea how much you mean to me? you're my only fucking friend that i'd give everything to. you lied to my fucking face to protect someone else cause you made a promise to. you're the only person i've cried so much over and you're just a fucking friend. i don't even cry so much over my ex gfs. you have that place in my heart. and to think what you did you thought wouldn't affect me? i can't believe you, and i still love you as much. you're still in my fucking shell and i don't mind. and i'm willing to kill myself if that shows how much you mean to me. i know i sometimes treat you like fuck, but i never dreamt you'd lie to me. now to think of it maybe it was fine to treat you like fuck. you're #1 in my heart and do you know i didn't care if i was in your's or not. i just didn't think you'd do anything like this to me and think it wouldn't affect me. and i've never ever EVER blogged about how weak i am, you know how i am. and here i am screaming to the world telling them that i'm breaking myself and its all because of you. i knew you loved me and thats what that makes it all worse. because you can find new turtle shell if you like and just come back as and when you like okay. because if that makes you happy, i'll live it down. and don't ask me to chill cause when i wake up tomorrow, i know its not worth it. but you know i'll do it again anyway. everyone online is asking me what happen and you know what, i promised you i won't say. and i didn't. thank god i'm an introvert and have no intention whatsoever to tell anyone anything. and i swear no matter how much i love you, i'm willing to give up this friendship, and even if this seems like nothing to you, it is the extreme to me. i hate myself for loving you so much and letting the world know how much and easy it is for you to bring me down. cause no one NO ONE besides my mother can do that. and i'll take my sorry ass far away from you if you feel better. cause all that ever mattered most to me was you, i loved you more than i did love me, and you know how much i love myself right. i have the confidence of a brat and speak like i'm the best and i loved you more than that. i never knew i could love a friend like that. and you're the only one that i'll feel like that for. hope you feel blessed. JUST LOOK AT ME right now and you'll realise how i feel is shit compared to this whole chunk of words. i'm not afraid to let you know how i'll cry in front of you and you know i'm not like that. just because you're broken, you have to do the same to me too? this time, i've judged wrong. and now the world knows how weak i am in front of you, you claim its revenge, well, congrats. i hope you enjoy your winning (:

YOU DON'T LIKE BEING 2ND, I DON'T LIKE BEING WRONG.